I had another rough morning. Hard to get myself out of bed. I started thinking about things I don’t do enough. Things that could be contributing to my depressed mood lately. I came up with 3 things that I should always be aware of, eating, sleeping, and hygiene. I don’t want anyone to get the wrong idea, because I do eat, sleep, and take care of my personal hygiene. So why am I writing about these 3 things? Because when I’m anxious and depressed, it’s easy to think there is nothing I can do to feel better. It’s easy to fall into hopelessness. When I’m in that dark and scary place, I brush off the essentials to balancing my body.
Eating has to be the hardest thing to balance in my life. It’s so easy to go through a whole day without one thought of food. Plus I’m extremely critical of my body so sometimes my brain purposefully forgets to eat. Because if I don’t eat maybe I’ll loss weight and look pretty. It sounds stupid but for me, it’s persuasive. It’s also just very easy to continue working on a project or paper and just skip a meal. My mind tells me “you don’t have time for that!” I know it’s my anxiety talking but sometimes I just give into it. Here’s the truth about not eating.
The body relies on proper nutrition to function. Without food, your body does not have enough energy and nutrition to carry on the functions necessary to sustain health, and over time your body will deteriorate and eventually shut down.
Me and sleep have been in a battle since I was young. I love to sleep. It’s the most peaceful time for my mind. But sleeping too much became a problem in mt teenage year. I spent an entire month just sleeping and missing school. After that I was totally against sleep. It became my enemy. “Sleep is for when I’m dead” I would say and stay up all hours of the night. I would get four hours here and six there. I I had no routine. It was only recently that I began factoring in sleep to my overall health. Here are some facts about sleeping.
Sleep plays an important role in your physical health. For example, sleep is involved in healing and repair of your heart and blood vessels. Ongoing sleep deficiency is linked to an increased risk of heart disease, kidney disease, high blood pressure, diabetes, and stroke.
My final thoughts are on hygiene. When I was a teenager my hygiene lacked. That month I spent sleeping, I didn’t shower much. I remember feeling disgusting but not caring enough to take care of myself. Over the years I have learned much better hygiene habits. I shower regularly and brush my teeth. All the normal hygiene things. But mornings like this morning really mess with me. When I got up I looked in the mirror and thought how disgusting I look. I felt gross from sleeping. I brushed my hair and sighed. I had just showered the night before so I was convincing myself that showering now would just be a waste of water and time. Reluctantly I went to the bathroom and started the shower against every instinct I had. Everything in me told me to just crawl back in bed and forget it. I remember getting out of the shower and feeling so much better. I felt clean and awake. I felt ready to start my day! It took a lot for me to do that simple easy task. Especially when my mind was fighting against me.
One personal benefit of good hygiene is having better health. Keeping your body clean helps prevent illness and infection from bacteria or viruses.